The Fat Lady, The Phoenix, and Me.

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Still in fetal position, trying to untangle my mind, making a list of things to sell so we can still pay the home health aide so desperately needed, while simultaneously having to rewind the justice clock. (The fat lady has yet to sing as my adversary has filed yet another motion, this time saying the Appellate Court got it all wrong, not due to any misinterpretation of law or ignorance of fact, but solely because she has declared it so.) Can’t say that one took me by surprise, though.

I am so, so, tired of having to expend what little energy I have and what little time I have left, trying to fend off the constant barrage of spit-balls, cannon balls, and cow pies that certain people seem to delight in flinging my way. I have wasted too much of my life trying to understand them, trying to please them, trying to flee from them, trying to be loved by them. But I realize now it has always been a losing battle, for reasons that know no logic. I really believed that I had finally become immune to this kind of hurt but know now that I am not. I cannot change the facts. I cannot change others. What the hell took me so long to see that? My psychologist tells me the answer to that question is that I am just too good and honest and make the mistake of assuming everyone else is, too. While I appreciate the compliment to my character, if his analysis is right, it just seems so sad.

But despite all the sadness, I am proud of the person I chose to be and despite all the tears, have no regrets. So stick with me my friends, as my job now is to remind myself who I am and who are my real friends and family, and to teach myself once again how to fly with the Eagles, as this Phoenix shall rise again!

And now, some silly little images I made to cheer myself up, perhaps more suitable for a 6-year-old girl, but as I never really got a chance to be a kid when I actually was one, I am giving myself the chance now to make up for lost time. Enjoy!

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Above The Trees

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Da Poodle Power

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Reading To Baby

Not A Dry Eye In The House

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I am back, but not completely. My 2 week hiatus from blogging was due to an unexpected, emergency trip back to Pennsylvania. The traveling alone wreaked havoc on my health, but the cruel insanity I was subjected to has broken my heart. I am not one who cries very easily, having been brought up to fear being given “something to really cry about”, as my mother would put it. In fact, I recall only coming to tears once in the last 20 years and that was when two of our dearest, life-long friends passed away within just weeks of each other. But over the last 6 days, I have made up for a lifetime of being the stoic one, by bawling my eyes out, being choked up, and feeling a huge pit in my stomach double me over. I am lost as to how to come to peace with what happened and at the same time feel like a complete fool for having expected anything different.

Once again, I know I have been going on about something that I’ve been very vague about, but I am lost for the right words so figure it’s best to stay silent. While I’m still feeling quite sad now, I am so grateful and blessed to have such a wonderful, loving, supportive Hubby and Son, and so many great friends to come home to. I promise y’all that I will get passed this and be back to my usual cheery, optimistic self and will do my darndest to not let you down.

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My Broken Heart

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Got My Answer – Justice IS Possible in Florida!

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For those of you who’ve been following my blog and my long, long wait for a ruling from the court, I can now say that the light at the end of the tunnel is finally in view! Yesterday, the Florida 4DCA finally posted their opinion on my case. The good news is that they denied my adversary’s appeal of the trial court’s order from 2008. The great news is that they granted my appeal, remanded the question about “how much” my adversary must pay me for attorneys fees and costs, and also paved the way for the Trial Court to be able to consider the question of breach of contract, damages and unjust enrichment. So while it’s not completely over yet, as my son said,

“It’s the beginning of the end.”

The opinion will not be considered “final” (or as they call it in Florida, a “Mandate” for 15 days in order to give the parties an opportunity to request either clarification or reconsideration. But for those of you who are interested, you can download the Court’s opinion in .pdf form here: Carlin v. Javorek. The opinion only addresses the issues that were addressed in the order on appeal so it’s not really very informative as far as what I consider to be the “real” issues which brought about this case in the first place. But that’s okay because, as I said above, they not only did not slam the door shut on those issues, they left it wide open with a sign above it saying “Enter”.

Because of the nature of the case where certain issues remain to be resolved, I do not want to unfairly influence either the court, potential jurors, nor be in a position where I could actually be held liable for slander or libel (vs. unreasonably be accused of it) despite the fact that the truth is always a strong defense against such charges. So I hope y’all will understand if I don’t respond to any question for more details on those unresolved issues at this time.

I owe a huge hug and Thanks to my appellate attorney, Robin Bresky, without who’s understanding of what was really at stake in this case, hard work in researching the law and fussing over the wording to get it just right, and kind patience and understanding for what I have been personally going through. I could not have gotten through this without her and heartily recommend her services to anyone and everyone!

And, Thanks to all of you who have so kindly supported me and taken so much time out of your own lives to write me (on and off the blog) and/or call me. You are truly appreciated and I am blessed to have such friends as you.

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WEIGHT OFF MY SHOULDERS

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